My Earlier Journal Pages

These are pages from my journal describing my symptoms from about three months ago.  I read my words this morning and just now realized I am feeling a lot better these days.  This is awesome!!!  This last month has definitely been the better of the last six.  It is hard to remember how much stronger the pain, numbing, and burning was before.  I'm glad I kept notes. 

Denial.

Sure, I am in denial. I wake up every day thinking it was just a dream. For Christmas, I wished for the body I had before July 3, 2009. The body that wasn't numb, the body that wasn't tingling, the body that wasn't vibrating. But alas, my symptoms remain and will last two more days, two more weeks, two more years, two more decades, and/or forever. So, I find myself challenging my attitude. What will I do about it? How will I manage this? Stay tuned for 2010, the year of positive thinking perhaps?